Friday, June 12, 2009

i get embarrassed really easily

one thing that i don't like about myself is that i get embarrassed really easily. when i was a kid, if i did anything dumb, i'd just stop talking. for what felt like days at a time.
i kind of still do that. but sometimes i'm able to laugh about the dumb thing i did. and then other people laugh too. then it's good. the dumb thing became a good thing.

but lots of times i still do dumb things and then i just don't talk for a long time.

and sometimes, i can't even tell if the dumb thing i did was actually dumb. and that's the worst. because i don't even know if i should feel embarrassed. so i just get sad and nervous. and then i feel embarrassed that i'm reacting in such a wussy manner.

and sometimes i don't give a crap about anything. those are the best times.

4 comments:

Amber said...

you have nothing to be embarrassed about, nic. everybody really likes you. all the time.

schoolpants said...

shut up!

schoolpants said...

i also get really embarrassed/angry when people say nice things to me.

most of the time i assume they are being sarcastic.

Amber said...

i meant it but i can call you a jerkface if you'd prefer!

i have the opposite problem where i always assume people are being nice when they are in fact being sarcastic. i am generally being really nice, though -- so you know.