one thing that i don't like about myself is that i get embarrassed really easily. when i was a kid, if i did anything dumb, i'd just stop talking. for what felt like days at a time.
i kind of still do that. but sometimes i'm able to laugh about the dumb thing i did. and then other people laugh too. then it's good. the dumb thing became a good thing.
but lots of times i still do dumb things and then i just don't talk for a long time.
and sometimes, i can't even tell if the dumb thing i did was actually dumb. and that's the worst. because i don't even know if i should feel embarrassed. so i just get sad and nervous. and then i feel embarrassed that i'm reacting in such a wussy manner.
and sometimes i don't give a crap about anything. those are the best times.