so, i was bored at work a few weeks ago and i was playing with a calculator. i added up how many days old i was. it was close to 10,000. so, just for shits and laughs, i marked the 10,000th day on my calendar. that day is tomorrow.
anyway, 9,999 seems like a pretty big number. it seems like i should be an expert by now. like, i should know how to make the most of a day. but today, i did almost nothing. almost nothing at all. i'd say of my first 9,999 days, well over half were like today. that's no good.
i would estimate that i actually remember close to 500 of my days. probably 100 of those were good days. that's not bad, i guess. but it's not enough.
who knows. tomorrow is day ten thousand. maybe everything will click into place at dawn.